Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Independent Days

Living Alone

Ok, it’s my second night alone in Mau’s pad. I must say living alone is quite enjoyable. I’m cooking my own food; stuffing my laundry somewhere-I-can’t-smell-them-until-I-start-to-and-then-I’ll pop-them-in-the-cleaners. Not bad. I’m back to prepaid for a few days, and for some reason I can’t log into my YM account. I still have so much to do… I need sleep. RegCom stuff again tomorrow. Cooking really eats up a lot of my time, not to mention washing the dishes and pots.

Argh. I have to finish this typing job! And why the hell do I keep forgetting to buy toilet paper?!?!?!

Stealing Candy from a Baby

The world is a big, scary place. People aren’t who they seem to be, whether they intend to or not. Not everyone sees the world as you do. As surely as you say one thing is the truth, the next person is also as sure to say another thing is the truth. Truth, is opined. The world is subjective, one’s ethics doesn’t reflect the other. Trust is a very tough issue. How can a person entrust something to someone? How can someone put himself/herself out there?

So what is left?

Bawal Umihi Dito.

(Yes my fellow Ateneans, I‘m waaaaaaay behind on the reflection paper, but it just came to me.)

People create spaces where they are in control, where they rule. These places are so special because in our world today, each person is assigned tasks. There are roles that each person plays, and every time he/she fulfills the duties those roles entail, he/she answers to someone higher up.

After all the stress, it is easy to see why people need to lay claim to objects, or spaces, or traits. “Mine” is empowerment. “Mine” is triumph over authority. “Mine” is possession. And when these personal spaces are usurped, one loses his/her hold on himself/herself. And the usurper, willingly or unwillingly, takes away something special from a person and gains something that may or may not be special to him. The scales may be balanced but the objects on the scale aren’t the same. For example, a person may mean lust to another or companionship to another person. And the objects (for lack of a better term) taken define themselves differently as well. Life is an amalgam of definitions and subtexts. Living in our day and age takes a certain cognitive intuition. Sounds strange doesn’t it, because I‘m pretty sure I‘m using a wrong term but forgive me, it‘s 12:50 in the morning…? But think about it, an average person goes out, throughout the day he/she will meet a lot of people. This includes the passers-by, policemen, waiters, not only one’s co-workers or fellow students. What makes you trust these people. Of course they aren’t going to randomly take out a knife and stab you to death (but you never know lol…) but the thing is, how do you know what thoughts each person you run into entertain? How many people are megalomaniacs? How many people feel like they ought to kill someone? How many people feel that they can trust you? With your cognitive intuition, you try hard to assess that person and see if you can let that person into your life.

Experience is the best teacher, that is how we can sharpen our ability to tell apart who to trust and who not to trust. Because eventually, you will let someone into your heart, and they will break it. And I’m not just speaking in the romantic sense, or love in all it’s baggage for that matter. All we can do is pick up the pieces and make sure these things don’t happen again.

But hey theoretically you are bound to run into people who you connect with. These are the people whom you read about in all those inspirational texts. These are your real friends. You know like having one real friend is a fortunate thing and all that. Not “best,” “real.” There’s a difference because with real friends, trust becomes easy, love becomes a familiarity. These are the people who will willingly sacrifice themselves to help each other without a quid pro quo subtext. These are the people who will share their lives with you. These are the people who will be beside you as you live and die. And of course, you will reciprocate that trust and do as much as you can for those friends.

Hm…I’ll stop now, I think I have to start pissing.


Well I’ve got a couple of stuff to watch here for when I get bored, which I often do but for some reason never really get a fair amount of time to practice.

Cyrano de Bergerac (Woot got subs!)
Lady in the Water (It wouldn‘t play in the DVD player…)
Y Tu Mama Tambien (heehee…)
City of God (I know I‘m way behind)
Darker Than Black (Saw the first episode and it seemed kinda meh but I’ve downloaded up until episode 7. We’ll see if it is worth continuing.)
A Clockwork Orange (Seeing Sai in The Wedding Singer show reminded me that I have yet to watch it and return it to her.)

And up next in the download spree
History Boys
Spammalot Bootleg
Wicked Bootleg
Some more librettos :D

Tuesday, May 22, 2007



mm.... DSL is good. :D Torrents... mm...

Sharpies... whee......:D Me happy.

And I'm in the process of getting drains again :D

How I Met Your Mother

I'm in a production, a double bill entitled Not Another Cup of Coffee from Roofdeck Productions. I'm really having a lot of fun and things are going...well not great since I'm not delivering as much as my boss likes but things are fine.

What I really love about it is the pegs that I have been given. And thus my bosses have introduced me to this show. Hahaha addictions galore. This is the first straight-up sitcom I've followed and seen in a while. And I'm enjoying it a lot!

I'll be performing around August. Nood kayo ah!

My Girlfriend Who Lives in Canada

To those who get the allusion good for you. But no I am referring to my relatives who have come over to Manila for a while. That being said I think I will be out and about these next few days until my RegCom duties drag me out of the house for two weeks of hellish and ultimately fulfilling volunteer work. Going to be living in Mau's pad. Woot! That's at least 2 hours of extra sleep EVERY DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Some reviews

The Pursuit of Happyness

A very inspiring and well-made script, refined with great casting and acting makes a movie great. People should flock to see this if they want a tear-jerker.

The Banquet

Now this is quite an amazing story. Though I feel the movie was trying hard to become an art film with all the excess scene and symbolic devices shots.

Basically The Banquet revolves around the treacheries/trickeries of the leading lady. It really hearkens the days of vile court officials and poisonous alliances. And even with the politicking there is the recurring idea of love which just makes the movie brilliant. And of course the accurate and exquisite portrayal of the life and times of the Chinese court!!! Excellent!

The crafting of the characters are excellent, from the innocent servant to the haughty empress! Brilliant work! And the ending was exquisite! After that well-delivered speech, her death was just so unexpected and that made for a great coup d' grace ending!

Zhang Zi Yi kinda has this scary smile/look doesn't she? When she smiles with her teeth out...

House of Flying Daggers

Erm... Nothing much to see here. Not much emphasis on the relevance of the House of Flying Daggers... The movie centers on a love triangle, with lots of fighting in between! The knife-throwing scenes are just well um... off. Great fight scenes though! But anyway there are strong themes of love, duty, and fanaticism involves here. Great plot twists but all in all a very weak script makes for a meh movie.

Little Miss Sunshine

I was laughing from the start of this movie. This is sheer genius. The exposition at the dinner table was just golden. After hearing those exchanges you KNOW it's going to be a brilliant movie.

Seriously it's an excellent laugh trip even without reading into the script for deeper subtexts. And the script! Masterfully written! When the father said "good luck" I was already applauding the movie! And the daughter was just exceptional in the stock character of a curious and innocent child. Her exchanges with the Miss America was it? about ice cream really emphasizes how children view consequences and role models. From the start of the film one could already see that the themes of beauty and judgment would be running all through-out the movie. As the father's program is further explained the definitions of winners and losers are in themselves words of brilliant script writers.

The whole "life is a beauty pageant" was a recurring concept throughout the movie. The brother who committed suicide kept saying that he was America's number 1 scholar as a sign that he still clings to his laurels. To the father, winning and losing is the beauty pageant. To the grandfather, the beauty pageant is his family. To the mother...well holding things together I guess but I think I have to watch the movie again to see her tie into this concept. The son explained the whole concept! To the daughter the apparent physical beauty pageant is there.

The scenes of the Little Miss Sunshine Pageant were quite disturbing as those little girls were literally dolled up. The skanky clothing and routines? Or over-rouged and sprayed hair? The clothes? They all stand in contrast to our heroine who goes about the pageant as bluntly as a stone. But that is our culture as the son says. Everything is a fucking beauty pageant. Has our lives been transformed to hold a judgmental image culture? The whole porn star routine, though tagged as inappropriate for the conventional talents and shows, further illustrates the message that everything in life that we do is judged by other. Conventions and traditions are held sacred and those that seek to break the status quo aren't given any dinero for their time. This is quite a serious implication but I do mean, in the context of the story since the girl didn't know what she was doing, that people are being processed and compacted to meet expectations. Beauty pageants are homogenizing each and every single event in our lives.

The ending can bring its viewers to tears because the scenes were just so damn funny. As the family joins in the porn star dancing, they illustrate the defiance they have with those who dare step on people's dreams. And with their display of rather funny choreography they have solidified their positions as family. No judgments, no beauty pageant. To each his own niche in the family on the verge of breaking down.

Spiderman 3 Review

Spiderman 3

All right this is one of the big 3s! (Pirates, Shrek) And after months of anticipation...........................
What a let-down. Sure the action scenes were great. But come on the movie should have been edited or something to trim it down to 2 hours. It saw like a TV series. Will Mary Jane ever pick the man she truly loves, find out during the next episode where [DEUS EX MACHINA] the butler reveals all!!!


Previously on Spiderman.
"You were always a disappointment, Harry."
"Avenge ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
(Scene opens. Harry sits on a couch, a therapist has just stepped out to take a leak.)
"Damn daddy issues."


(Jazz music. Peter enters with the "changed man look.")
Peter comes out of a shop with a new ensemble and starts doing his disturbing dances.
"You can't sing, you can't dance. What are you even here for?"
(American Idol theme plays.)

OK, seriously. The movie did have its moments. Things just weren't really cohesive. And Raimi's penchant for side comments and shenanigans really doesn't help. Some of them may be important with the character build-up but with 2 frickin movies prior to this I highly doubt if you need that much bullshit/extra scenes to build the characters.

From what I can remember:
1. The waiter at the restaurant where Peter was supposed to propose. It was funny but they could've cut down 2 minutes from there.
2. Harry telling his Butler to get some food. Apparently this signals that the Osbourne family actually has a butler.
3. Mary Jane and Harry dancing to the Twist. Now there might be some symbolic reference to the Twist but the whole thing was just a fun moment. On that note, Mary Jane you skanky whore! And you Parker, moron! Same with the fallen omelet. Fallen friendship. Sad really... Or maybe I'm over-reading.
4. The singing of Mary Jane's replacement. And the "That was handled (something something)" by the directors. The whole Mary Jane losing the role because her voice couldn't reach the back just doesn't make sense. Did everyone get a good look at that theater? I mean some people have loud voices but I doubt if people could sing and have everyone hear without a frickin microphone. Yeesh.

Now on to the characters!

Venom. Erm... As Kester pointed out, the only reason why SpideyVenom was uber strong was because Spiderman already had his own powers. Where did Venom get his powers? Hm...? He was so pissed that he got so strong? Or maybe the symbiote absorbed Peter's powers... (Maybe this one, something I didn't pay attention to while the good doctor was explaining.) Which leads us to...

Doctor... something. :D I'm sorry but with what sort of materials are you able to understand and diagnose the symbiote. It's so Marvel really.

Sandman. WTF was he even doing in the movie?!!?!
"He could learn a thing or two from Gaara"- Bola.
Hahaha good one. Since apparently he was the one who killed Uncle Ben, the script writers just debased the whole "With great power comes great responsibility" scthick that was so essential in the molding of Spiderman's character. Oh speaking of crappy script writing, we move on to the...

Butler. I wonder if Stewey actually possessed the Butler in Spidermans 1 and 2 and then signed a contract that made him miss a Spiderman 3 appearance. Imagine this:

"That's right boys. Fight to the death! While I take all your armaments and wealth to rule the world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!L33t eleventy-one!!!!!!!!!!!!"

COME ON! SERIOUSLY, the Butler is the sign that the script writers seriously didn't know what they had to do to have the movie progress to the epic friendship pawns the world Naruto psychobabble! I mean they had to wait 2 movies? WHAT? Pathetic writing. Which leads us to...

Harry. I have no idea how many times he flashed the "dumb jock smile" but it sure got the girls' votes. Because I don't think he ever smiled that way in Spiderman 1. Yep daddy issues... When he helped Spiderman it was quite apparent that he was going to die. Why? Love triangle stuff that apparently the script writer didn't want to pursue. Which moves us on to...

Mary Jane. I dunno but she may have been the start of the emo stuff. EMO you say?

Peter. Disturbing. Very disturbing. But very well-performed by Toby Maguire. I just think it was exaggerated. But hey it's Raimi so those little vignettes sorta kinda make sense.

And as we progress through the movie people can (well maybe over-reading) pick up some racist stuff. Notice the impotent cops. Of what skin are they...? Hm... But who knows I may be just over-reading.

The most annoying part of the movie was the whole AMERICA PAWNS EVERYTHING crap. I mean all the whole 911 allusions? Newscaster talking, scene location? AND THE MOST GOLDEN MOMENT.

I don't have a picture... Remember when he was web-slinging around New York and he stops and has a MOMENT with the American Flag as a backdrop. Erm yeah...

MY GOD! That was a very blatant American propaganda scene. But of course I'm just reacting to it because I'm not an American...Damn them why couldn't they have had made the Philippines one of their states way back.

Thursday, May 10, 2007

WTF Ad!!! And no not in the pretty sense.

Anyone seen the Gago ang Oposisyon ads? If not, head over here. Thanks to Shari Cruz (Misteryosa) and Lincaotun for spreading the word about it's existence.

Seen it yet? Good.

Now what in the world is that!!!

Is this even legal in our country? What did the Adboard have to say to this ad or "public service announcement."

It's just funny how the ad was paid for the Friends Against Crime and Corruption (FACC). How aptly names. People who give a FACC. But kidding aside, I hope these FACCers, um yeah, do show their faces and actually do something in the future. Assuming of course that this is an altruistic organization bent to saving the Philippines from crime and corruption. They've spend quite a fortune already with the airing of their ad now I wonder what else they will be doing with their money, wherever they got that from. Hm....

But if your like most skeptics, then you probably know that these FACCers are related to the tutas (oh yeah we love puns) Team Unity.

Now onto the ad!

The tune and lyrics are rather catchy, well-made and well-written to be perfectly fair with them. Kinda sticks to the head doesn't it? Hm... Psychological warfare! (JAUNDICE IS BEHIND THIS!!! BE WARNED ROFL! erm to non-Judenite readers just excuse this.) But seriously come on, eventually this will be stuck in the heads of the people who view these ads. Whether you follow the psychobabble, it HAS an effect. I'm not sure what but I've taken it up in Comm Theory, lolz this is bad...

Then with the imagery. I don't really understand why they have to censor those faces if they are already defaming a certain group then already the attachments are quite apparent. Not familiar? Refer to the ad of DLSU advising parents to invest wisely using the University Rankings Survey results as a backdrop. Was this some sort of ethic/moral issue? Haven't the FACCers realized that their vehicle for their message had already thrown any modicum of ethics?

With "Barkada ni Erap" in the lyrics we can deduce (albeit not totally accurately, like I said maybe the FACCers are altruistic Filipinos) that the enemies of Erap have created this ad. Who is the greatest enemy of Erap? Hm... Gee I wonder who...

"Hindi man lang nagsorry"

This throws all sensibility out the window! In case people haven't notice the Mole of Asia (damn puns!!!) is still sitting comfortably, skipping meals from time to time but still up there in the top, despite CHEATING IN THE ELECTIONS! SHE FREAKING APOLOGIZED! Which apparently given that line in the ad is ENOUGH to appease the masses.

I certainly find this amusing. Just think about it. Let's imagine you guys are in some other country, say America. And for your homework, you've been asked by your professor to read up on the Philippine Elections for president, apparently there was something juicy there. And you read about this Gloria lady and how she duped her whole country. What would you think?

"Smart girl!" ?? or "Dumb country!" ??

How in the heck are we able to look at our children in their faces when they ask us about this? Imagine with those Shrek 2 Puss in Boots eyes your children, asking "What did you do after?" This whole Hello Garci thing will after all be written in the history books. But I guess that's digging up old baggage.

This ad is a wake-up call, and the Philippines has had many already; of how morals are thrown about in this country, of what politicians' motivations are, of what the future holds!

To the voters, the future of the Philippines is in your hands! ...Barring Hello Garci shenanigans.

Woot, but seriously, this IS a democratic nation. Let's practice it.

To the future senators (why Miriam are you not running...), I hope you guys do your jobs well. Correctly, honestly, and most importantly guilt-freely. It is amusing to note that the Philippines is the most religious country in Asia. But looking at the slums and the government processes of the Philippines, how could one prove the statistics awarding the Philippines with this title.

I wonder if the corrupt officials are religious, for with their actions I highly doubt if their reservations in hell could be set in stone any harder. That is if they are religious. If they aren't well, karma and all. What comes around goes around, in this lifetime or the next. Enjoy that Pork Barrel!

EDIT, I just saw the ad while surfing. At the end it tells the viewers to go to Youtube to download the song! WHAT THE HECK!!! IS THAT LEGAL!!! I wonder what Youtube authorities have to say about that!!!

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

Days are going by...

Ok, it's May... That's one more month before my duties in RegCom take over and I miss summer...

And I have done... well... not much...


Well, it's been postponed since apparently I have brachycardia so I can't be cleared for surgery.
So I've got to increase my heart rate and have it in the stable rate... hay...


Right now I'm beside with happiness! I just got my own laptop. So after all of high school and 2 years of college, I have my own computer! Woohoo!

I also recently bought a 250gb external hard disk. I'm not really sure why I did it but I'm sure it'll come in handy over the semester.

Killing Time

So I decided to tickle the ivories, well plastic/resin... After all, I just printed a whole slew of music sheets of songs that I would love to master. And after a couple minutes of struggling to read the notes and putting everything together, I have concluded that I suck at playing the piano... I've got no technique, no sight-reading skills, no play by ear skills, no mastery of the keys, nothing.

Sad really, I guess I'll have to teach myself everything, the orthodox way.